When I sat down to write about our first 6 months here, I found this post that I'd written about a year ago and never got around to publishing:
I wasn't surprised when I found this pic. on our camera. Lately, the most exciting thing in the world for the girls is when the hands align on the clock. They yell for everyone to look, and then jump up and down. Kids are good examples of noticing things we don't, of appreciating things that happen day in and day out, and of enjoying the present.
We usually think of kids as being impatient, but as an adult, I don't know if I'm much better. I want to know what's going to happen, and how, and where. I like to plan, prepare, know what to expect. It's hard not to be in control.
Sometimes, I wish I had a crystal ball, so I could just see and know and relax. But, then, other times I'm glad I didn't know what was going to happen, or I'd think, "I don't want that to happen!" or, "I could never do that!" Surprises of all the wonderful things to come would also be spoiled before they happened.
For years, we prayed for Myles to finish his project. It seemed like a good thing to pray for. But, then I started thinking that wasn't what we should be focusing on, it wasn't the whole point. There were other things to do and other people to help. We were still here for a reason. I couldn't see where we were going, but felt like we were being guided on the right path. I felt peace.
Just after Myles interviewed for jobs out of state, I was asked to be the leader over the teachers and children (ages 18 months-12 years) at church. I told our bishop, "That's fine, but we're moving soon." He said he prayed about it and felt like I was supposed to be the one to do that at that time. I got the same answer.
The companies told Myles they really liked him, but didn't have a specific place for him yet. That was over 3 years ago. Since then, the housing market has crashed (we're so glad we didn't buy in CA then), and I've been leading the teachers and children.
This past fall, when most people thought we were crazy for not looking for a job (including ourselves, at times), Myles felt like he should keep working on his project, and so he did. Because of this, he connected with a professor in Germany who does work in his area. A whirlwind of events literally blew open one door after the next for us, and we felt like that was where we're supposed to be.
I never felt the sorrow or devastation that I thought would surely overcome me for having to leave here without a PhD. This is just the next step. So, where I thought we'd have an ending, a new beginning awaits.
As the song goes, "the rest is still unwritten."
Now, today, one year later:
In some ways the past 6 months since we've landed have flown by. In
other ways, our "other life" feels like a world away. Maybe because it
is!
Although some days have been long, especially in
the beginning, overall we've had a much easier time adjusting than I
thought we might. The girls haven't complained much, Myles' work is
going well, and we've been blessed over and over again with friendly,
helpful people.
We always said we could go anywhere as long as we had each other. We just weren't expecting that "anywhere" to be so soon.
The
other day, I was remembering that when we thought we might be moving to
CA, the girls said things like, "No, way! That's too far! Can't we
just stay here and you can work at K-mart, Dad?" So, when we knew we
were supposed to move to Germany, we were a little worried about their
reaction. But, they said things like, "Sure. Isn't that over the
ocean? OK. Can we start reading the Book of Mormon in German every
day?"
With 6 month's worth of experiences behind us, we're able to laugh about some of our first few weeks of blunders that were anything but funny at the time. Like when we were invited by some friends for lunch, only to walk a really long way to get there and realize we couldn't remember their last name, which you need to get "buzzed" into the building complex...to appearing homeless when we showed up with all of our stuff after 2 straight days of traveling in planes, trains and automobiles, only to discover that the lady with the keys to our apartment was sick that day...to snatching a man's keys out of his hands thinking he'd stolen ours...I'm noticing a pattern with keys here.
Just yesterday, I caught myself walking the girls to
school without noticing my surroundings. I guess this is a sign of
feeling settled in.
As for New Year's resolutions, we
don't have to worry about getting more exercise, as long as we keep
having trains to catch. Myles said it would be pretty funny to have a
video of us running to the train, watching it pull away, coming home,
getting all our gear off, only to do it again!
A few days ago, Macy played at her friend's house from Poland while the mom and I talked with only German in common. This morning, I found myself speaking Spanish to another friend, and tonight, we made Pita Pockets on bread from Italy. This has been fun, meeting people and tasting food from all over the world. And, yet,
my moment of "the clock aligning" for me today was finding a post-it-note from Carly to Robyn on the bathroom mirror.
R-I love you. You can use the little toothpaste.